Finding the first Love, having the encounter with God

Recently, everything around seems to trigger my temper so easily. Anything can easily spark me off, and I will feel irrigated so easily. I know it is because of the stress that is coming from my work. Frankly speaking, I also don’t know how my body is able to take the late nights almost every night, and the stressful lifestyle. I guess sooner or later, the body will start to rebel man… but of course, I pray against it! I am still so young, so many things that have not done.



Gerald talked to me last Sunday after the lunch for the church pioneers. Yeah, my boyfriend is one of those pre-Hollywood church attendee!! Hahaha ….solid right? Anyway, he shared with me about the dinner, how they reminisce the old days, singing all the older praise and worship songs. And of course, there were testimonies by some people of how they have grown up in this church and how have they been blessed tremendously by God. But the one Thing that he spoke that really strike me, was that he mentioned that we all need to find our FIRST LOVE. This is the First Love at the very first time that I receive salvation. I still remember that time when I stepped out in faith, walked down the aisle and said the sinner’s prayers to accept Christ the Lord as my God and saviour. I will never forget that moment of my life.

Indeed, it is so important for everyone of us to always go back to the first love of our life. Life is never a bed of roses, and all the more that when we have become a Christian, we have entered into a battlefield to fight the devil and Satan. Many times, we are almost sucked off by the temptations and cares of the world, and then we forget our first love. A healthy spiritual relationship, should be one when we constantly remember and go back to find our first love. Life may seem to be tough, but still, as long as we know our source of strength, we will know where to go and we will never go in the wrong direction. The sense of direction that is going to bring us to our destiny!


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Today’s service was extraordinary special to me. Not because it is a big day. Not because some special speaker is coming to preach. I just have this special feeling that something different is different in the atmosphere as I stepped into Hall 8.


The moment Pastor Yong sang the first the sentence of the first worship song, I could feel the weight of God, the glory of God just descended and filled the whole air. The air smelt different. The air tasted different. The presence of God was thick in the entire room. I could hardly breathe! And I felt myself just totally being immersed and engulfed into the presence of God. I was enjoying myself and suddenly, all the accumulated tiredness from all the late nights suddenly were just being lifted from my shoulders. I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks, and I just felt that tones of baggages were being lifted up from me! I felt that I could dance in the presence of God and I am so free! Indeed it is like what the Bible says, those who are in the Lord are full of liberty and freedom! I really thank God, for giving me the chance to fall in love with Him all over again. Throughout the two worship songs, God just kept reminding me to come back to the first love. I need to find the first love, fall in love with God all over once again. Despite my busy work schedule, I need to find my own secret place to come and seek God, talk to Him and fellowship with God all over again. I cried out to God, and I did not even care what my neighbours are thinking, or wondering why I crying so badly. I just let out all my frustrations to God, and I told God that I am sorry. I will learn to let Go, and Let God. I know it is not going to be easy, but I am going to try nevertheless. I know I will succeed, because God will give me the sense of direction, I will understand why I am going through what I am going through, I will have the courage and charity to do the things I need to, I will have a positive self-esteem, because I am a child of God and lastly, I will have self-confidence, because Phil 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”

I have such a good time dwelling in the presence of God in that 20 minutes or so. I know I need to have more of such encounter times with God. I made a personal resolution, that I will try my very best to fulfill what I said. If I want to do, I know I can do it, because God will give me the strength!


I am so excited. I have some fresh ideas that God placed into my heart during the preaching and during the ministry time. I was asking God, what can I do for the cell group. Things seem to come to a stand still in the cg. But I kept asking myself, why did it turn out like this? This is not the ideal cell group that I could have imagined. God spoke to me some ideas, and I knew that these were God’s ideas! I am so excited about them, I will not share them here now, cos I really want to seek God and pray about them first. But nonetheless, I knew this year 2006, its going to be breakthrough it! I need to put my dreams and visions into action. God! Empower me! Strengthen me! Give me strength, to make me whole!


Jesus, I love You!!! This coming Tuesday, 14 February, is Valentine’s Day. Indeed, other than saying “I Love You” to all your loved ones, should not we also say “I LOVE YOU” to Lord Jesus, Father God and Holy Spirit too!!!


I am going to make year 2006 to be the best year for me personally!!!