My thinking palace.. where i deposit my emotions, my thoughts of what i feel, see, hear...

I have moved!!

2006-10-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hi all!!

Seeing the recent popularity of the great multiply influx move, I have moved to a new site. Please continue to give your support to me in the new blog:

http://kris80.multiply.com/

see you there!! =)

What is a FRIEND?

2006-09-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

Something i came across today, and I really like it... So thought would share it with everyone who is reading my blog now.

What is a Friend?

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have,
and one of the best things you can be.
A friend is the one who will always be beside you,
throught all the laughter and through each
and every tear.
A friend is the one thing you can you can always rely one;
the someone you can always open up to.
A friend is a sanctuary.
A friend is a smile.
A friend is a hand that is always holding yours,
no matter where you are.
A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart

-- Collin McCarty--

Blessed

2006-09-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

Today went to WuiPing and Annie's baby shower... and their little boy, Ren Hao, is just so cute!!! Oh my goodness!! Little ren hao is simply so cute!!! Although he is much smaller than most of the babies that I have seen recently, but for a one month old baby.. hmm.. not too bad lah.. but he is a really very responsive baby! When you call his name, his eyes roll all over to search for the voice that is calling him. And when you pat him, he actually smile to me =) Really cute boy.. am sure when he grows up, will be a handsome and talented boy=)

On another note, actually today i received 2 blessings from two different people that I met today. The first one, she actually blessed me with a key chain and book mark. Before you think that its just a small thing, let me tell you. Its not the stuff that touches me. But the message that this friend wrote on the bookmark that really moved me. I tried to think in what ways have I helped her, but i just could not find a reason for her to bless me. In any case, I just want her to know (if she ever read this blog, i am sure she will know who she is), that I am really blessed that she considers me a friend. Despite the short time that we have known or even interacted with each other, her gesture really touches me, and really once again, I can feel God telling me, 'Hey my child. I know that you need a small encouragement, and tada, here it comes!" Thank You Lord, Thank You Jesus, Thank You my dear friend!!

Had been a tremendous sunday.. looking forward to a great week ahead!! Oh yes, when I was watching the KL emerge video, i heard the following statement and I caught it. I love it!

STOP TELLING GOD HOW BIG YOUR PROBLEM IS. START TELLING YOUR PROBLEM HOW BIG YOUR GOD IS!!!

Isn't our God a wonderful and amazing God??? Dont you agree *wink*

God is good

2006-08-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

We had a very fun cg outing last week.. played the chinese version of Shi2 zi4 lu4 kou3. haha... if you dunno what i am talking about, well, basically its like the Jacky wu's variety show, where teams have to go around to eat food items, connecting the last word until they reach the final destination.

It is really one of the big scale cg outings that we ever had for a long long time. Thank God for the good weather, spontaneous response from the friends and members and guess everyone really had a great time. Of course, in every game, there can only be one winner. But i feel, everyone is a winner that day... cos everyone who participated really sweat it out.. haha... know why i say that? Cos my team had 4 guys and 2 gals, including me. At the third dish, the other gal got to go.. so, left me loh.. and we literally ran around chinatown trying to find our connecting dishes... haha... was indeed tiring, but my team also had a lot of fun. By the time we were on the train, heading towards Expo - our final destination, all the 5 of us, sweaty but chatting happily away. Before we knew it, we are already at expo station. My team dashed out to the 7-eleven, bought the fruit juice and drank it, and then...............sprinted all the way to the ROcky Master!!!!! Phew!!! long way man... thank God for sustaining me.. haha... nearly ran out of breathe. In the end, we came in second.. haha.. not that bad after all huh.... :p

I am still trying to collate the pictures.. so maybe in my next updates, u will see the pics liaoz.. hehe...

Mind-blowing sessions with Rev DR AR Bernard

2006-08-21T10:17:00.000+08:00

Last weekend, we have a powerful, explosive, mind-blowing session with Rev DR AR Bernard..He is really one of the most knowledgeable, wisest teacher that I have ever heard. The last time DR AR Bernard came was 4 years ago.. haha.. really like the olympic games.. once in 4 years. But then, this time round, really can feel the dynamic power that is released into the atmosphere at every session. Every session is a mind-blowing session, and as I sat at my seat listening to him, my mind is turning a thousand times and in so many different directions. Trying to store what is taught, and trying to think of what I can do, and etc etc etc...

Throughtout the 3 sessions, my pen just kept writing & writing, trying to capture down as many things as possible.. When i look at my paper at the end of the day, ha... so messy.... really must go back and re-organise the notes and refresh the things that have been taught in the last 3 days. But the thing is, there are so many things to learn and absorb. Given the limitation of our human brain, how much can we register just by listening once? A good message should be listened to more than once, so that we really ponder hard and reflect upon the words that have been spoken.

Thank You DR AR Bernard, we really love you, and really really really hope you will come back next year....

Finally an IBM Laptop!!!

2006-08-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Today i got my IBM laptop!!! All thanks to my admin officer, Irene..hehee....

My company currently are buying the latest IBMT60 for all the senior managers.. so their laptops are changed out to the seniors.. heehee... and seniors' computers are passed to the new assistants who are joining the firm.

So, finally, after working in EY for 2 years, i can lay my hands on an IBM laptop and throw away my DELL laptop!!! haha..... God is Good!!! Extremely GOOD! Muacks!!!

Long time since I blog

2006-08-16T11:00:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i blog... haha... xuan and andrew been reminding me... erps... okay lar.. not that I got nothing to share.. but recently too many things happening all at the same time, and I am really bothered by all these things. So kinda of dun want to talk about it in details.

Anyway, yesterday i missed the prayer meeting again.. haiz.... my tuition kid got no other days that he can reschedule the tuition, and he is really lagging behind. So no choice... haiz... anyway, really cannot stand my tuition kid really. He is a secondary 1 boy at Bukit Merah Secondary School. But hor, wah man!!!! Dunno what to say... slightest thing that u say that he thinks that u are raising your voice or reprimanding him, his tears will just roll down so naturally leh!!! *Roll eyes and Faint* and yesterday, he almost like cry for 1 hour out of the 2 hours of tuition! Oh My God!!!!!! God save me!

I must really think of more creative ways to try to help him out of this man!! More wisdom, more grace!

Amazing God

2006-07-21T10:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday during the cell group meeting, brother isaiah preached about the story of Marah, and taught us how to handle bitterness in life. Indeed the 3 pointers that he preached is so real. As I sat there and listened to the word of God being sent forth through his worker, I cant help but to praise God for his amazing love.

Many people live a defeated lifestyle, even though on the surface, they display a strong front to the people around them. They neve want people to probe into their inner life, and most of the time, this is because there are certain issues in their lives that they do not want to face up to it. Running away from a problem always seem to be the easiest way out, cos at that point of time, it seems that the problem no longer exist. This is really the OSTRICH mentality.

Some other people bear grudges all their lives, because they have been hurt by their loved ones, or being betrayed by someone close to them. As they gradually allow the root of bitterness to grow within them, one fine day, the tree of bitterness will just engulf their whole body, soul and being. They will no longer be able to experience true love from God and the people around them. To them, everyone and everything around them seems to work against them, and they have to be constantly on the guard to be wary of the people around them. And sooner or later, these people will suffer from mental disorder. If you don't know what I am talking about, then just recall the times u see some elderly folks talking to themselves, or scolding an invisible person on the MRT/bus/street, this is what I mean.

Indeed, we have to constant check ourselves to prevent ourselves from falling into such a trap. This is a trap that Satan has set up, and it is so easy for man to fall into it. Simply because this is not a perfect world, every human being has a certain expectation of things and people. And when the things that they expect do not happen, they become disappointed and if they continue to nurse it, one day, they become bitter and eventually, like what the bible says, there is only one ending to such - Death.

However, our God and Abba Father, really loves us too much to allow us to go through that. He always reminds us of His love, and when things do not go the way that we expect, and we become disappointed, it is important that we ultimately go back to God himself for a restoration of his Love in our lives. We need God, and that is a fact. Only God can take away the disappointment and in place, put in love inside us, so that it wun be empty. God is indeed so great, that He still continue to love us and take our hands to take us out of the Valley. Who else, can do that? The truth is, not even ur closest friend or family member or spouse will be able to do that. Only God and Only God Himself is able to do that.<br>

Indeed, I can testify to all the above, cos so many times, God always does that for me. Everytime that I am disappointed, God will always either give me a word during my quiet time or through a preaching @ CGM/service and remind me of His Love. He reminds me, "Hey I am God. Trust in Me, that I can solve your problems, I will take vengence for you, and I will Love you Always." With these words, I know, there is no problem that God can't solve. And Indeed, His love is my Strength. Amazing Love of God.

So friends, are you disappointed today? Are you feeling that your world seems bleak? Then what are you still waiting for? :-)

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Amazing

YOU’RE MY EVERYTHING
THE REASON I SING
YOU’VE TAKEN ME UNDER YOUR WINGS
AND CLOSER TO YOU I DRAW NEAR

MY LIFE’S IN YOUR HANDS
MY HEART BEATS IN YOUR PERFECT LOVE
MY LIPS SHALL PRAISE YOU ADORE YOU
AND LIFTING MY LOVE I WILL SING

YOU’RE AMAZING
NEVER CHANGING
ALWAYS WITH ME
ENTHRONED WITHIN MY SOUL

OVERFLOWING
MY HEART OFFERS
THE DEEPEST OF HONOR AND WORSHIP
AMAZING

Gerald has Graduated!

2006-07-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

On 14th July 2006, that is the day. That is the day that auntie and uncle are the happiest! I can see that they are so happy, so proud of their son. I can almost see them grinning from ear to ear... finally, this is the day. They have seen how hard their precious son has worked for this piece of paper. Endless night of slogging, revision, projects after projects, and rushing from one place to another to give tuition, serving in the church and cell group and etc.

Yes, the guy that I am talking about in the opening paragraph, is none other than my dear dear, GERALD TAY! Yes, he has finally completed his 3 years of studies and NUS, and obtained that piece of certificate. We also joked, that he is now a Beng.. haha... know why? Cos he has graduated with the Bachelor of Engineering a.k.a B.eng!

Really want to thank Yong Qing, who came all the way down to congratulate Gerald. And of cos, for helping us to take pics and video...we have so much fun snapping away. For those who have missed the event, i have attached a few pictures below.....

Please Pray!

2006-07-14T11:54:00.000+08:00

Please pray for my mummy!

She has been having pains in her leg particularly her ankle. She has already seen the doctor 2-3 times and had injections. But until now, the pain still wont go away. The doctor say that it is because of inflammation, but this has already been going on for around 2 months already. And she cant rest from work, and her work requires her to stand for 8 hours every day. So heart pain to her like that... God, Please heal my mummy!

Bible says, there is power in the confession of His Words. And when we have the faith to believe that healing will take place, then it shall happen. As I am typing this now, I am really reminded of the bible story of how this man went to ask Jesus to heal his servant. He told Jesus that He just need Jesus to say the word, and he has the faith that his servant who is in the house will be healed. Jesus commented what great faith this man has. Indeed, I pray for the same kind of faith, that even if my mum is yet to be a christian, Jesus will come and heal her. Cos we believe and have faith and she will be Healed! Hallelujah!

thank You Jesus in advance for the Healing~ I know it is taking place! Amen!!!!!!!

Never procrastinate...

2006-07-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

Just like the header goes, I have learnt my lesson. Truly, my word of advice to all out there, and of course, serving as a reminder to myself, DO NOT PROCRASTINATE

There are so many things that are to be done at the right moment. Once we lose the opportunity and correct timing, often we have to rework our schedule around it to find the next better time to do it.

Once it is lost, it is lost. Come'on guys. Lets do it now! Strike while the iron is hot!

6 1/2 years coming..

2006-06-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

Coming thursday will mark the 6 1/2 years of the courtship between gerald and myself. And of course, that exclude the 3 years before our actual courtship. Haha... time really flies... thinking back of the days that we have spent together, from school days, to working life, to when Gerald went back to school days again, and now, he is finally back with the workforce, we have gone through much as a couple.

Many of the friends around me always asked me, how I manage to maintain the relationship after such a long time. For many of my JC buddies, many of them had actually gotten a relationship during JC and Uni days, but yet, most of them have already broken up. Of course, not all are bad. Around me there are many couples who are marathon runners, like Kenneth and Huiqin, Isaiah and Klessis, Edwin and Evelyn... (in case you are not aware, these couples have dated 10 years, or close to that already!)

So i really asked myself, what is the X-factor?? Finally i realised.

These are all God fearing couples. They are all serving God faithfully, and of course, their relationship are built of the foundation of God. Isn't that amazing? God is not only concerned about our spiritual walk with him, but He is also constantly concerned with every aspect of our daily lives, be it our career, relationship with people, and etc etc etc... this really reminded me of Matthew 6:35 - Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and all his righteousness shall be added onto you. Indeed, when we put God first in our lives, God will simply ensure that every other thing of our lives will nicely fall into place.

I think back of the days where how Gerald and myself first got to know each other, and then later fell in love until today. Indeed, it was really God who create that divine meeting at Tiong Bahru Plaza on that saturday afternoon, at the bus stop opposite Tiong Bahru Plaza. Never did I imagine, that having lost contact for a year or more already, that God would create a chance for us to meet again. If that afternoon we did not meet each other, frankly speaking, I would not want to think what would I be doing today.

You may wonder why I say that. It was after meeting Gerald that saturday, that he subsequently invited me to City Harvest Church. At that time, despite I have already acccepted Christ for more than 1 year ago when I was in JC2, but I have never attended any church service at all. In my heart, somehow or rather, I have already back slided from God. I still remember that first service that I attended service on a saturday at our old Hollywood premise.When I was on my way home after the service, I felt this joy that was really bursting out of me. And I was already looking forward to the next service the following sunday. I knew I have found the place of joy, and I knew that was the place that I wanted to be.

And there, I have been in CHC for the past 6 years. I have never once thought of going to another church, cos I knew this church is where I would be for the rest of my lives. I have found my meaning in life, found my joy, found my peace and most importantly, I have found my most faithful friend, Lord Jesus Christ!

Oops, think I have diverted from my original topic. But anyway, I am glad and glad that Gerald has brought me to this church. So, i believe from the bottom of my heart, as Gerald and Myself continue to put God first and let God be the one to take control and nourish our relationship, we will be like that flowers that will blossom and be forever in love with each other.

So my friends, do not be anxious to seek your partner. Continue to seek God and serve Him, and God is a rewarder. He will definitely reward you with a precious Gem that you will never imagine. I have found my GEM. So you definitely can do it too!

A month full of weddings...

2006-06-14T18:35:00.000+08:00

Phew! this June is really a busy month for me... not in my work.. but busy attending weddings! Never in my life did I receive so many wedding invitations that are all falling within 2 weeks ( I have a total of 5, and 2 actually fall on the same day! )

Nevertheless, though my purse seems to be much much lighter this month, yet, at the same time, I am so happy to see my friends finding their life time partner. Seeing them walking down the aisle with the blissful smiles on their faces, it just bring a touch of loveliness and warmth in my heart. At those moments, I could almost feel their joy, and their anxiousness and their heartbeats beating away... these are friends that I have known for years, especially for Weiping and Christina (they have actually known each other for 11 Years! and throughout all these years, God continue to show himself faithful in their relationship and just draw the 2 of them together to start the next chapter of their lives. Another lovely couple is none other than my secondary school buddy, Serene and Peter. Though I never knew Peter personally, but I can always see the beam of love shining from Serene's face whenever she mention Peter. And of course, on her wedding day itself, I could almost feel my tears sipping out of the corner of my eyes, as the 2 of them recite their vows, vowing to take each other as their husband/wife.

Of course, where there is union of lives, there is also separation. I got to know of a couple who started dating since JC-1 days. So if you do your mathematics, this is a couple who have been together for almost 9 years. Yet, the sad truth is that after 9 years of courtship, they decided to call it a day. And all because of the word Committment!

Within a span of 2 weeks, I truly see how commitment can be such a dangerous word. No wonder so many people are so so afraid of this word. In our daily lives, we can see so many different cases of people, who decide to drop out of what they are doing, because they want to be free. They do not want to be committed to the things they are doing, or the relationship that they are in, or the faith and God that they believe in.

People are so afraid to commit, because they do not want to tie themselves down, because they want to sought after the freedom which they consider to be able to do what they like at when they want to. Yet, what joy is it to enjoy such freedom, when you have no one to share the joy with you? I can never never understand couples who find themselves so estranged in a relationship, and they begin to get so frustrated, because they are not able to get what they want out of the relationship.

There are also some people on this planet earth, who can give loads and loads of excuses, just to explain themselves why they should not be committed to what they are doing. To me, sorry to say, its loads of craps! Staying committed is a decision and a conviction. Its much easier to stay committed than to find excuses to cover yourself on why you should not be committed, don't you agree??

But to me, who ever told you that in a relationship, you are to be like a sponge and just keep taking from your partner, you will find that you will never be satisfied in the relationship. Until you start to learn to give in a relationship, you will never truly understand the meaning of LOVE. Pastor Kong always say this, You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving. When you truly love someone, you will have no qualms about giving to him/her, to make him/her happy.

I know my dear, Gerald, does not read my blog. But still, I just want to tell him (just in case one day he decide to read), Thanks Dear, for loving me, for giving in to me whenver i throw tantrums during my stress period. Thanks Dear, for always giving me surprises whenever I feel sad and U never fail to know how to make me happy. Love ya love ya...:-)

Lovely Sunrise

2006-05-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

For all of u who love to watch sunrise like me, do watch this. It is taped live, from a kelong right there and then. Its so lovely. I am really looking forward to going back there again man!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jfCHeRpnN4

Easter Weekend

2006-04-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

This weekend is the easter weekend. To many people out there, it is just a long weekend, and many non-christian take the opportunity to go overseas, for a chillout holiday. But we, as christians, it is a 3-day event that we have, not just to commerate the death of Jesus, but to rejoice the resurrected Jesus. And of course, to proclaim the name of Jesus, that He is indeed an alive God.

Every year, City Harvest Church Drama ministry put up such a fabulous easter drama, that never fail to move the audience to tears. This year, the theme of the drama is " What choices will you make? " I loved every bit of the drama, cos i know every year, the drama ministry will put up the best drama that you can ever find in. Sorry if you say that I am biased, but i am sure all those who have watched the drama, will definitely agree with me that the drama production is international standard leh. Right? *Wink*

There is one part of the drama which never fail to bring tears into everyone's eyes. That is the the scene where "Jesus", which is enacted by Brother Tian An, where he is being whipped on the way to calvary. The next minutes of the drama is like the highlight of the entire drama. It literally send a chill down my spine, every year when i watch that part of the drama. My fears will just flow uncontrollably down my cheeks. How can the people ever done such a thing to the man of God, son of God? Everytime i see this scene, i remember how Jesus has shed his Blood for me, on the cross of calvary 2000 years ago. Who will ever die for you? I believe not even your best friend will ever do that. But yet, Jesus did it willingly for you and me. Thank You Jesus, Thank You Lord. Your love for mankind is so great, that I know nothing that we ever do will ever be enough to repay you. I am so glad, that I serve a God that is so real, so human and yet so God.

I LOVE EASTER, I LOVE JESUS, I LOVE CITY HARVEST CHURCH!!!

So friends, what is the choice that you going to make today? Have you made Jesus your personal saviour and friend?

So long since i Blog!

2006-03-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

aiyo... looking at the date i last came here and leave a trail, that is almost one month ago already! Better start to blog something, otherwise XUan will scold me from backsliding from blogging again laiox .... LOLx!

been so busy at work since december, and things seem to be slowing down a tiny little bit (which i really hope it is). Work been so taxing on me, physically, and its seems like the weight of the work, plus the office politics are getting so heavy on my shoulders, that I am almost crushed under it. Everyday, I got to ask God to renew my strength, give me wisdom to deal with that irritating, stuck in the mud and arrogant person in the office.

My colleagues all tell me that I am too soft alreeady. Thats why she is always looking out for me to bully. Come to think and analyse it lor. yeah wor, I am always the one to get "it" from her, and then after few hours, her mood will ve a 180 degrees change!

I think i need to get to be more fierce and vocal in office! I cannt allow myelf to be constantly bullied by her ! IRritating! Lord, Give me WISDOM and endurance! I really worried that I may say something nasty to her very very soon, if she still contine to push her luck, a little bit, bit by bit by the day! I am so scared that I cant control myself!!

But thank God, for the Holy Spirit, so far, I have not said anyting nasty to her. Must be the Holy SPirit controlling my temper, and giving me maximum self-control! But God, please help me! I dunno how long more I can sustain under such eractic and psycho-pathic people anymore~

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ARGHARGHARGH!!!

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Irritating people

2006-02-21T12:16:00.000+08:00

Feel so angry. How can someone actually expect you to be on 24 hours on-call for work? And she is not even my pastor or my boss lor. So irritating. TO call me at 2am in the middle of the night. Worse still, not to ask me something abt work, but only to check with me regarding some taxi claims and receipts. Wow man.. how irriating can it get???????? How can such people actually exist on this planet earth? SO SELFISH!!!! THEY DUN NEED TO SLEEP DOES NOT MEAN THAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THEM ALSO.

i am really angry. How come such inconsiderate people actually exist on earth?? GOD, WHY???

ITS VALENTINE'S DAY!

2006-02-14T14:36:00.001+08:00

YES, ITS VALENTINE'S DAY!

MORE THAN A DAY FOR ONLY LOVERS, Valentine's is also a day for us to show our love to all your Loved ones. Remember, there is more than just one type of one type of love. There is family love, friendship love, and most important of all, LOVE FOR GOD & JESUS!

Tell God how much you LOVE HIM on this occassion, and of cos, more than just today, we shold express our love to God everyday of our life. SImply imagine how often you express your love to your most loved one, thats the frequency you should express your love to God, or EVEN MORE!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY DEAREST FRIENDS OUT THERE, TO GERALD (MY DEAR) AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, JESUS CHRIST, MY LORD AND MY SAVIOUR!

ITS VALENTINE'

2006-02-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

Finding the first Love, having the encounter with God

2006-02-12T00:33:00.000+08:00

Recently, everything around seems to trigger my temper so easily. Anything can easily spark me off, and I will feel irrigated so easily. I know it is because of the stress that is coming from my work. Frankly speaking, I also don’t know how my body is able to take the late nights almost every night, and the stressful lifestyle. I guess sooner or later, the body will start to rebel man… but of course, I pray against it! I am still so young, so many things that have not done.

Gerald talked to me last Sunday after the lunch for the church pioneers. Yeah, my boyfriend is one of those pre-Hollywood church attendee!! Hahaha ….solid right? Anyway, he shared with me about the dinner, how they reminisce the old days, singing all the older praise and worship songs. And of course, there were testimonies by some people of how they have grown up in this church and how have they been blessed tremendously by God. But the one Thing that he spoke that really strike me, was that he mentioned that we all need to find our FIRST LOVE. This is the First Love at the very first time that I receive salvation. I still remember that time when I stepped out in faith, walked down the aisle and said the sinner’s prayers to accept Christ the Lord as my God and saviour. I will never forget that moment of my life.

Indeed, it is so important for everyone of us to always go back to the first love of our life. Life is never a bed of roses, and all the more that when we have become a Christian, we have entered into a battlefield to fight the devil and Satan. Many times, we are almost sucked off by the temptations and cares of the world, and then we forget our first love. A healthy spiritual relationship, should be one when we constantly remember and go back to find our first love. Life may seem to be tough, but still, as long as we know our source of strength, we will know where to go and we will never go in the wrong direction. The sense of direction that is going to bring us to our destiny!

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Today’s service was extraordinary special to me. Not because it is a big day. Not because some special speaker is coming to preach. I just have this special feeling that something different is different in the atmosphere as I stepped into Hall 8.

The moment Pastor Yong sang the first the sentence of the first worship song, I could feel the weight of God, the glory of God just descended and filled the whole air. The air smelt different. The air tasted different. The presence of God was thick in the entire room. I could hardly breathe! And I felt myself just totally being immersed and engulfed into the presence of God. I was enjoying myself and suddenly, all the accumulated tiredness from all the late nights suddenly were just being lifted from my shoulders. I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks, and I just felt that tones of baggages were being lifted up from me! I felt that I could dance in the presence of God and I am so free! Indeed it is like what the Bible says, those who are in the Lord are full of liberty and freedom! I really thank God, for giving me the chance to fall in love with Him all over again. Throughout the two worship songs, God just kept reminding me to come back to the first love. I need to find the first love, fall in love with God all over once again. Despite my busy work schedule, I need to find my own secret place to come and seek God, talk to Him and fellowship with God all over again. I cried out to God, and I did not even care what my neighbours are thinking, or wondering why I crying so badly. I just let out all my frustrations to God, and I told God that I am sorry. I will learn to let Go, and Let God. I know it is not going to be easy, but I am going to try nevertheless. I know I will succeed, because God will give me the sense of direction, I will understand why I am going through what I am going through, I will have the courage and charity to do the things I need to, I will have a positive self-esteem, because I am a child of God and lastly, I will have self-confidence, because Phil 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”

I have such a good time dwelling in the presence of God in that 20 minutes or so. I know I need to have more of such encounter times with God. I made a personal resolution, that I will try my very best to fulfill what I said. If I want to do, I know I can do it, because God will give me the strength!

I am so excited. I have some fresh ideas that God placed into my heart during the preaching and during the ministry time. I was asking God, what can I do for the cell group. Things seem to come to a stand still in the cg. But I kept asking myself, why did it turn out like this? This is not the ideal cell group that I could have imagined. God spoke to me some ideas, and I knew that these were God’s ideas! I am so excited about them, I will not share them here now, cos I really want to seek God and pray about them first. But nonetheless, I knew this year 2006, its going to be breakthrough it! I need to put my dreams and visions into action. God! Empower me! Strengthen me! Give me strength, to make me whole!

Jesus, I love You!!! This coming Tuesday, 14 February, is Valentine’s Day. Indeed, other than saying “I Love You” to all your loved ones, should not we also say “I LOVE YOU” to Lord Jesus, Father God and Holy Spirit too!!!

I am going to make year 2006 to be the best year for me personally!!!

Our destiny in God

2006-01-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Bro isaiah told me yesterday night that today's sermon going to be very good. 2 weeks ago, Pastor Kong already say that he is going to preach a sermon that is going to bring us to the next level and in fact, a powerful sermon to start us off in Year 2006. As I was going to bed yesterday, I was already so excited and asked the Holy Spirit to reveal a little bit to me about what Pastor is going to preach...haha....

A few things that Pastor talked about that really make me mediate on the words. First: Poverty begins in the MIND and is a result of the STINKING THINKING OF MAN. Being poor does not just mean that you are being poor financially. But being poor really means that the way you think in life is going to affect the way that you fulfil the perfect will of God. A man's life will remain the same, even after stepping out in faith to the respond to the altar call. I like what Pastor Derek taught during the bible study. Salvation does not end at responding and saying the sinners prayer. Thats is the just the beginning, not the end. To live a fulfilling life in God and for God, it is important that mindset be changed and thinking be renewed. Remember what Jesus says? We do not be conformed to the world but be transformed by the RENEWING OF YOUR MIND.

Second: We existed in God's mind way even before we are formed in our mother's womb. That means that even before our parents have met each other, God has already even thought of us, planned our destiny and given us a purpose and calling in life. There is no such thing as reincarnation. Haahaa...imagine those myths that we heard in our growing up days, of what our previous life is, and what we do in this life is going to affect what our next life will be...haha... so drama mama... channel 8 serial... keke... Deja Vu.. when the Holy Spirit takes me temporarily out of the parenthese of eterity and let us have a glimpse of the eternity that God has set in our hearts. How to experience Deja Vu is not through works, but purely by relying on our closely intertwined relationship with the Holy Spirit to bring us there. So the next time I seem to experience a place that I seem to have been there somewhere before, I know and I know that God is showing me a glimpse of the eternity, or the future that He has set for me, and am I walking in the right path. THE PATH OF THE JUST WILL SHINE EVER BRIGHTER. And just mean to be in righteousness~

In conclusion, I am a product of eternity..what I am doing on earth is just a replica or even slight indication of what I am going to do in the eternity. I want to receive and live according to the holy calling of God. I need the spirit of GRACE from God. The spirit of Grace enables me to truly fulfill the holy calling and destiny.

I am truly blessed by the message. Its time for me to start to seek God and set my priorities right for the new year. To start the year right with the right attitude. My spiritual goals: To be more spiritual in 2006. To hear from God and receive rhema from Him daily. To be able to apply all the biblical and spiritual principles in my life and changed to be CHRISTLIKE! Thats my goal. I must achieve it! Holy Spirit I need You!

Thank you Pastor Kong, for preaching so hard today to bring us such a great sermon. I love City Harvest Church, I love Pastor Kong and Sun. I love the Holy Spirit and above all, I love Jesus Christ!

2006-01-14T12:06:00.000+08:00

the SUN is out after so many days of pouring and cold cold days!!!!!

For once i really love the sun....... cos the wetness in the air is cleared and even the air smells different!

hahaha....not kua-zhang leh.... cos everyday in office is like staying in a freezer like that...and when i reach home...its still so cold...almost got to wear scarves and gloves liaoz....hahaha....

The temperature is really just nice.....a bit sunny but yet still windy.....dun feel so humid... :p

2 more weeks to CNY ....hmm...OMG! Haven go shop ard to buy CNY clothings leh.... hmm... must really try to squeeze a night out next week man... looking forward to CNY....not because of the goodies ....but cos got 2 days to rest! haha.... not that I am lazy lar...but really public holidays are good time to rest...cos past few months and weeks been so busy...everyday is like fighting a battle and rushing for the next train...so..... i really need to sleep in..so...2 more weeks...the public holidays...Hiphip hooray!

a NEW year, NEW resolutions, new DREAMS! ~~

2006-01-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

wolalala....haha...i am back...yesh..today after sis kless and xuan reminded that i have "backsliden from my blog, then i realise haha..so long i have never come and leave a trace of my footsteps here laiox... lolx! haha...okokie.i repent and I recommit myself back to blogging once again... haha :-)

Indeed, year 2005 has been a year full of many ups and of course, many downs for me as well. Went through many things, learnt many things, seen many things as well. But all in all, just want to thank God that He has pulled me through, and walked me through the last 12 months. If God was not my source of Strength, I could not imagine what life would have been like for me....wow seh...i guess only my dear dear knows what I meant...:p

anyway, like what Pastor Kong preached 2 weeks ago, I do not want to be like Lot's wife i.e. not to look back at year 2005 and lament what I could have done. Instead, I tell myself, whatever I did not achieve in year 2005, I will make it happen in year 2006 ^-^ I am sure it is not going to be easy. But anyway, no one ever say life is easy lor... and without problems and trials, probably u are not living on planet earth?

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Been raining non-stop for the past 1 week plus liaox..... keep raining & raining....so funny that my mummy kept worrying abt one thing....the mummy's worry...haha...none other than the laundry!!!!!!! She keep staring at the sky and say aiyo....the clothes not dry ar...haha..and the most funny thing is that when I go over to Gerald's place, his mum said the same thing too! haha...thats y i say its a mother's worry...perpetual problem whenever the clouds overtake the sun and decide to let the sun rest for a while...haha....

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Today Bro Isaiah called for a meeting at Suntec office for a time of sharing of the vision for the cellgroup as well as for our own individual life. I was filled with expectancy really the whole day...wondering what was he going to share. Frankly, I have not really started to pray and ask God for His vision for the cellgroup and my own visions for this coming year...only have very vague ideas... must and am going to seriously come before the Lord soon this week to pray and seek Him. Anyway, something that Bro Isaiah strike me hard in the face. An extract of his sharing:

Like the Roman empire in the roman empire days, when the Roman armies went to conquer a land, they bring in their culture, their food, their beliefs and everything and convert the people. Why they do not kill all the people in that land and bring in their own armies? Firstly, they gain the respect of the people there and win them over to their side. Secondly, they do not weaken their base by sending their troops to occupy the new land and their base become weaken.

wow.... ya... so true isn't it? We have been learning all the time about being a conqueror, be a light in the marketplace. Wherever we go, whereever we earn our bread and butter, that is our land to conquer and thats is where we should shine like stars! Why should we let the cares of the world influence us? Why should we let our colleagues and friends in the world corrupt our thinking? Has not the bible already told us very clearly that we should go all out and bring the people into the Kingdom of God? Yes, to build the kingdom of God is not a one man's dream or one man's business. Its you and I and everyone who is a CITIZEN OF THE KINGDOM OF GOD ! Do not let yourself be corrupted and won over by the world. Instead, win the world for Christ!

Then Sis Kless also shared something very profound. She said despite everyone of us having our own problems, we need to start to learn to put God's problems above our own problems. When we can learn to put God's problems first, and we try to Solve His problems, God naturally takes care of our problems. Its a simple truth, but I will say not many people can grapple with this truth. WHy? Cos human beings are not able to exercise that element in them called "FAITH". People often blame God for their problems, blame the people around them for not understanding them, blame the society, blame this and that...but never point the fingers at themselves. Ever stop to think, if you can stop and ponder why,prob u can find the answer. AS YOU BUILD GOD'S HOUSE, GOD WILL BUILD YOUR HOUSE. amen!!!! The world is still spining. So come on, make full use of the time that you have on this earth!

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On the way to Cityhall MRT, went pass URS and saw that they were having a sale there....an unknown force just draws me in...hahaha.. well...another excuse to buy shoes..hahaha....actually I have an objective to go in there one lar... cos last sunday went shopping with my mummy to Causeway Point to shop and saw a really nice pair of boots @ Metro. It was an URS pair and going for 20% discount. I tried it, loved it a lot. But on second thoughts, I reluctantly put it back onto the shelf.Cos need to save money ar lar....CNY coming..haven even bought new clothes...and two sats ago already bought 2 pairs of shoes at Metro warehouse sale at Expo.. But but, OMG! URS was having 40% sale for that same pair of BOOTS that I saw on sunday. haha..so happy leh.... was debating in my heart to buy or not to buy....after 20 mins....I finally make up my mind. I decided. I will part with my $ and buy it... hahaha! Well, my dream to own a pair of boots lar...so since it was going at such a great price.....just take lor... (haha...thank God Gerald never say anything, cos i buy shoes again! Hiakhiakhiak!!!) So I went home happily today..hahaa.......

Received a stomach full of spiritual teachings; had a good dinner with Xuan, Jun, Bro Isaiah, Sis Kless and Gerald, and a new pair of BOOTS!!! Hiphip HOORAY!

okie.... i gtg to slp liaox...will try to blog again tml....TGIF...... hopefully can sleep in on sat morning! so tireD leH!

Good nite Folks!

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a wonderful x'mas

2005-12-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

we have such a great and wonderful x'mas service. I think for the first time in history, CHC has the very first candle light service ! !!!!! !

So nice leh... 7000 white candles were all being lit up at the same time, and with all the lights off, the whole hall were brightly lit by the candle lights! So nice! Where to find such a great x'mas atmosphere in Singapore! Like what Pastor Kong says, after we snuff out the candle light, we become the Light of the WORLD!

So fast its X'mas again. The last X'mas seems only to have just passed and just the blink of the eye, x'mas is here again. Of cos, this means that another year has passed.

Looking back at the what have I done this year....Have I fulfilled the new year resolutions that I have set for myself at the beginning of the year? Have I grown during the past 12 months? Have I become a better person?

Well, i guess the best thing that has ever happened in Year 2005 is none other than Gerald (my dear) proposed to me on my birthday! hehehe..... ever since Oct till now, i feel like so 幸福 !!

Year 2005 is coming to an end. Have you think what is the best thing that has happened to u in this year? What is the best thing that you have done in this year ???

Life is short, treasure it!

2005-12-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS SHORT, TREASURE IT

ever wondered where will you go after you die? Are you going to the glory land? or are you going to the burning furnance in the pit of fire?

If Jesus was to come back today, am I ready to receive Him?

Have i fulfill the things that I have been entasked to do? Have I been a faithful servant, obedient child and fulfilling my call and destiny in Life?

Your time on earth is limited. Do not waste it! Do something purposeful and meaningful.

So you may ask: what should I do? What can I do?

In the Bible, Gen 1:28, God says BE FRUITFUL AND MULTIPLY!

Yes, in case you still do not get it, Thats is what you should do, what you need to do:

BE FRUITFUL AND MULTIPLY IN THIS LIFE AND LIVE TO THE FULLEST!

Serving Man, serving God

2005-12-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

Who ever says that life is a bed of roses once you become a christian? That person deserves a thousand spanks and probably even ............anyway, its never easy to live a life without any trials and tribulations. Didnt the bible, even Jesus himself, tell us that once you become a christian, be prepared for trials & tribulations are on its way?

Well, so why are you so surprised now that you are faced with tribulations? Remember, the moment you make a decision to get serious, asking God to enlarge your capacity, to enlarge your tent, strengthen your cords and expand your territory, there is only one thing for sure....THE DEVIL IS PROVOKED! Oh come on, its does not take a genius to understand that isn't it? The devil would never want another strong christian to be risen up and be a threat to his kingdom.

But yet, we should know one thing. God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and a sound mind. Who ever says you cant conquer the devil? All the more, STAND UP AND FIGHT THE DEVIL. I have learnt the lesson. No one can fight the battle for you except God. And no one has the obligations to fight the battle for you unless you take the first step , take up the weapon and all you need is to place your faith in God to fight on your behalf.

I feel tired, so tired, so tired at times when the devil challenges me to another battle. I ask myself, why do i have to go through such battles? Is it worthwhile for me to go through the pain, the pain of being accused, the pain of being misunderstood, the pain of aloneness, the pain of not knowing what is the next step that you should take. But I like what brother isaiah shared with me. At the end of the path is always the light. But if you choose to stop where you are right now, you will never see the light. But if you pick yourself up, continue to walk and persevere, God promises that there will be light.

Yes, its time to stand up and continue walking. I will walk, cos I will not give in to the devil. Never will i allow him to come and destroy my life, cos I knew that there is a greater purpose to what I am going through right now. Jehovah God, thank you for giving me the strength, cos I truly understand that whatever that i am doing, I do not and need not please man, but pleasing you makes me happy and thats enuff!

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom". Oh Yes, Lord, Abba God, I want more wisdom, I want to love you more, I want to have the fear of the Lord, I want to know your heart!" That is my prayer today!

so many things that is worth a penny for my thoughts

2005-12-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

I am back... haha... as usual, been missing in action for almost close to a month liaoz. Xuan commented last week that I very long never blog liaoz. Ya, really...dint realise how long it was already until i come and read the last blog that I penned... wow oh my! It was 19th November since I came here.... Okie... i got so much that I wan to blog...ready..get set... go!!!

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2 December 2005, Friday

friday was our last service at the Jurong West S$48million titanium building. I felt excited that we are moving to our new tabernacle this weekend (wow tomorrow leh!). But yet, at the same time, I felt sad. This building is really a place with my growing memories. Although i was first with City harvest Church @ Paya Lebar Hollywood, Jurong west is also a very significant place for me. i found myself really growing in this place, where the presence of God is always so strong and tangible during every service. And the most amazing thing is that the we are the only church that has an underground auditorium. We always say the neighbours must be curious why on weekends, every two hours, there would a bunch of people crawling up from the ground.. haha...

During the service last week, Dr John Avazini came and taught us a great lesson of the importance of having a holy and anointed covering. And Pastor Kong and SUn are the anointed covering that is protecting the members. Their unfailing love for the members is the passion and fuel that is keeping the church growing. And again, Dr John Avazini prophesied that this church is going to grow like never before, and we need to go up another level. wow...i asked myself, " Hey , are you ready to take up this vision and run together? "

Towards the end of the service, when Past Kong concluded the service with the song, "Making a difference", my tears just rolled down my cheeks. I could not stop it. I just felt the presence of God so strong in that place at that moment in time. I remembered all the memories in this church building, in this auditorium and every part of Jurong West St91 for the past 4 years. But yet, I know from the 10th Dec onwards, we are on a new journey!"

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3th December 2005, Saturday

Today we are going to celebrate XUan's 21st birthday. ha... make the arrangements to go to her place after cg with some of the members to give her a big surprise. Really want to thank Xiaowei for helping us to keep xuan in the room. So funny, wei told xuan that she got some things bothering her... need to talk to her. But our dear xuan already sensed something not right.. but in the end, the whole celebration was a success, except the games. Haha... as you would have read from the blogs of Xuan, we ended up saboing ourselves during the games. Hmm.. next time must plan a better one.. but i guess the whole thing is that Xuan enjoyed herself.

Dear Xuan, really so proud of you. Seeing your faithfulness in the Lord and your diligence to serve him, and at the same time, fulfilling your dreams, I guess that indeed it is the zoe life of God that is your source of strength to be able to do so many things at one time: Working full time, studying part time, practicing for the dance item, improving your guitar skills and serving in the cg...thanks Xuan. You are really a strong woman of God. THanks for being such a great encourager to me, everytime i am down, your smile always cheer me up! Muacks! Have a greater year ahead!

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3 December 2005

My good friend cum brother proposed to her girlfriend today!! Ha.. so happy for him. Indeed, I know he been looking forward to this day and how anxious he has been during that most anxious 15 minutes of his life, waiting for his darling to nod her head, say yes and put the ring unto her finger!

Congrats Hann! :-)

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7 December 2005, Wednesday

Today is the first time that we are going to the expo. We have seen the floorplan during the service and we were already awed by how big it is going to be. But i was even more excited to be there personally. I really thank God that I dont need to work overtime today , so that I can be there to join in the prayer meeting.

When we reached the foyer 3 area, I was already so amazed by the crowd. Never ever seen such a big crowd in Jurong west. THe only time would be on big days at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. But imagine next time every weekend, it will be such a big crowd coming together every sat and sunday to praise and worship God. wow wow ...

As we continue to walk towards the hall, my heart was filled with questions. How would the hall look like? HOw would an exhibition hall look like when it is turned into a house of God? The moment i reached, my mind was almost blown away. Yes, it was so huge! So many people! And the place look great! The lightings, the decor, the layout, everything! It was really beyond my imagination! And later, Pastor Kong told us that the whole hall was actually designed and overseen by Pastor Sun. wow.. indeed, thank God for talented people, and creative minds. THank you Lord, for giving us such a great pastor!

During the entire session of the prayer meeting, the presence of God was simply so strong. Tears of joy just kept rolling down my cheeks as we sang the worship songs. I was thinking of God's goodness, and how blessed I am that I can be part of City Harvest Church, where Pastor Kong and Sun has given the members a chance to experience God in such a great church facilities. THere are so many things that we need to pray for, and before we knew it, 2 hours has passed!

I look forward to the first weekend service this sat. I believe it is going to be another powerful encounter with God again! Amen!

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Wedding ceremony

2005-11-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

I like to attend wedding ceremonies, holy matrimonies, especially those of my good friends. Its always so heart warming watching them two lives joined as one.. and especially as the bride is walking down the aisle, with the warmest wishes of all the relatives and friends present, it is always such a heart touching scene.

Attended Juner and Kelvin's holy matrimony today and really, have so much 感触。Dont know why, dont ask me why. From the moment when Juner was walking down the aisle towards Kelvin to the end of the ceremony, I could feel the blissful and blessed atmosphere in the air, as if thousands of angels were in that place.

Of cos, at our age, it is such a common thing to attend weddings of our friends. Still remember years ago, we were busy attending the 21st birthdays of our friends. But a few years down the road, here we are, attending one another's weddings. WE ARE GROWN UPS LIAOZ.!! haha... dun deny it, but indeed, we are all moving into the next stage of life. Praise the Lord that we are all moving forward!

Of cos, at every wedding, it is yet another chance for friends who have not met for a long time to meet up and catch up with one another. Haha... ya, probably that is another reason why I always enjoy going to weddings, cos its really the time when U get to see friends that You have not seen for ages, and you start to catch up. I like to meet friends, I like to meet people whom I dun get to meet during the normal daily lives. I like these moments :-)

So, monday night is the dinner banquet @ M hotel... thats is another time for me to have fun and a good time catching up with friends... looking forward to the yummy dinner too ....hehehe....

Congrats Juner and Kelvin! May God continue to bless both of you so abundantly in your new chapter of your lives!

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Being focused means not to be distracted

2005-11-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

I felt today's sermon was speaking right to my heart, cutting right into my spirit... Holy Spirit was reminding me of the weaknesses and the flaws in me that I need to change. It is the time, the moment.....

This is a summary of what I learnt and heard from God today. I feel so blessed and I made a decision in my heart to change:

Pastor Kong talked abt being single-minded and when we are focused in our mind, our glory and creativity of God is released in us. Indeed, we have a life assignment fro God. Success in life is all about being focus minded. Focus brings energy and power to everything that you do. Jesus is the best example that we can ever learnt from, He is our role model.

3 things we need to build on in building our life assignment: Our STRENGTH, our DISTINCTIVENESS and our REVELATION. And its all a choice that we need to make.

The definition of distraction - means to have your attention away drawn away to something other than your purpose. And this creates confusion, which drains energy out and away from you.

So in conclusion, the 3 Don'ts:
a) Dont get distracted by INTERIM SUCCESSES
b) Dont get distracted by COMPETITION
c) Dont get distracted by the PAIN OF LIFE

tHEre is so much to learn just from this one hour of sermon. My mind was already totally blown away as I sat there, hearing Pst revealing point after point, precept after precept...

I saw how I have been getting so upset and jealous in my heart, due to some arrangements at my workplace, that really causes me to think of even getting out and find a new job. I was thinking of the prospects of stayin' in this job, at how far would I be able to go given the opportunities that are set ahead of me for NOW.... with so many outstanding people in my team, and I was not a homegrown, my subconscious mind always and keep telling me that its too difficult for me to survive.

But when Pst asked us to let go of our distraction by the competition and jealousy, I could felt the Holy Spirit nudging me, telling me, "HEY! Pastor talking abt u! " Yes, I have my revelation today. I also can shine, cos my light will not be hidden as long as I perform my best in the area that God has put me in. Never mind that there are so many smart and outstanding people. As I focus on my strength, on my distinctiveness, I will be able to shine too!

I want to shine ever brighter than before. I need to be focused! Yes, that will be my resolution from now on. I must not look down at the small talent that God has placed in my hands. I have the responsibility to let it shine!

Thank you Pastor Kong, Thank You Jesus, Thank You City Harvest Church!

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Looking forward to the long awaited rest

2005-11-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

finally this week, my manager ask me to go on leave, cos he is outstation and i finally finished the current job. Had such a tiring time doing this set of accounts, because the client is cannot make it... haiz.. but thank god, the accounts exec, Pei Zhen, was so helpful. Otherwise, i think do until next year also cannot finished! :-(

But the condition for me to go on leave, is provided I cleared up the files.. so here I am, today is tuesday already. 3 more days to the end of the week. Really hope I can rest at home tomorrow, and to go down church for the bible study.

There are so many things that I want to do, but yet, so little time. And reality is that I need more time to rest before the peak starts... Oh My GOd! God, pLease increase my time!! I want to fully maximise the next two days, complete and run all my errandS!

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Recently, been reading the book titled" The Parable of Pipeline". Gerald's mum passed me this book many months ago, and I never got the time to pick it up. And sometimes, I tend to get lazy to read... rather just stoned or surf the net and do other things...

But the moment I started reading the book last sat, I realise that I have fallen in love with the book. Although its a secular book, teaching you how to increase your wealth, but I was greatly impressed by how the author has simulated the ideas and concepts through a series of stories. And the stories do not take a PHD or genius to understand what is the moral of the story.

I am now half way through the book. I felt so strong in my spirit that it is really God's timing. God knew that I have made a decision to start saving this month, cos Gerald and me had agreed that from this month onwards, we will start to save up for the wedding. And God is using this book to teach me how to increase my wealth. Although I dont know how much I will adopt the strategies proposed by the author, but I am so grateful to the Holy Spirit, to God, for prompting me to pick up this book and start reading. And I must say I am reading it at a speed so fast that beats all other books that I have read so far!

I believe that in this building fund season, I am and I will prosper in Jesus Name ! We need to constantly confess out in faith, and believe and walk in faith! I knew it is going to happen, because my God is a real God, and ALL his promises are TRUE AND AMEN!

KTV today

2005-11-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

today spent the afternoon singing away @ the KTV at Chinatown with my cellgroup... personally i dun go KTV often.. and I always feel that I have a kiddish voice.. so dun dare to sing using the mic, but I love to hear and sing along.. hehe..

realise Xuan has a voice like Coco... and she sings so well.... if I din noe, I would have tot Coco Lee was in the room! Xuan has a very powerful voice, and I was really Amazed that xuan could sing almost every of Coco 's songs.. and Coco's songs are not easy lor.. wow... xuan, u are so ulti-talented! U can sing, u can dance, u can play the guitar and do so many thingS! A Woman of GOD!

and sis kless really sound like FIR... when she started singing the FIR song.. wow wow wow... so nice leh.. no joke...

den later aaron came ..... he sang a few songs and he also has a good voice man..

i found that there are a lot of Singapore IDOLS in my midst.... hehe:-)

This is the first time i went KTV singing with my cell group and i realise that they not only like to sing, but they are all superb singers!
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went to dear's place.... he was diligently studying..dear has been studying so hard for the past week.and he say it will be like tat till dec... really worried for him .... sometimes so scared he burn out... he is always a super perfectionist...always want to do things to the best.. and he got a busy shedule... but I am always so proud of him. He never complains, he just do it willingly... and even when he dun have time to rest, he still continue to serve the people willingly and joyfully. I am so proud of my dearie dear! I love you dear! Think time to make him some cooling tea, some soup..yeah

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we had mac for dinner... auntie ta bao for us.. so funny... cos initally we supposed to go out for dinner before dear go for his chinese church practice in churh.. but when i reached his place, he said he asked his parents to buy back for us... so we waited.. while i was resting on the bed while he doing his revision, suddenly i had a craving for macdonald's fries...was thinking abt it.. and tot maybe later go and buy one on the way back. But Lord and behold.... his mum called and say she be buying mac for us... haha... i was so happy... Lord hears my desire and He answers it immediately! I love you Lord! U answer even my smallest prayer! and i ate my dinner full of joy.. hehehe.....

gtg to find my bed liaox...tata...

luff luff

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A new look

2005-11-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

haha... i finally went to rebond my hair last sat. I sat in the salon for almost 3 hours. But surprised that it took shorter than i expected, cos the last time I rebonded my hair, it took me 6 hours!

I sat at the salon, felt so sleepy... probably because the whole week been so busy, rushing work in office. And finally come weekend. The moment I drop myself onto the chair, tiredness surge and my eyes started to close... and I could feel my head keep nodding up and down as the lady applied the cream and trying to apply the heat to straighten the hair.

Been a long time since i last rebonded my hair.. hmm.. come to think of it.. that is like 3 years ago lioaz.. haha.. I like rebonded hair, I like straight hair, and I like my hair to fall neatly in place when I wake up in the morning. :-)

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Just read Klessis's blog.. found out that she also rebonded her hair! haha.. so exciting! Kless, you are the 4th person i see this week to ve rebonded hair within the last 7 days! haha.... seems that rebonding is never out of fashion!

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I am the happiest woman on Earth on the 15th October 2005~

2005-10-17T17:13:00.000+08:00

I do not know how to describe the happiness... its so sweet that I still can savour the sweetness whenever I reminisce the moment... the moment that he started playing the song, the moment he pop the ring in my face and the moment he knelt down on his kneels and asked me THE QUESTION!

It did not occur to me that it would happen so fast and definitely I had never expect that he will do it in front of the cell group.

i still remember as he played the guitar and started singing the song, there were already butterflies flying and rummaging my tummy.... in my mind, it was a total blank. Frankly speaking, nothing was going through in that 15 mins. Though I somehow guessed he may be going to pop the question, yet I tried to brush away the thought, probably because I dont want to be disappointed if it did not turn out to be what I expected.

and oh my oh my... when he stopped singing, my heart almost stopped at the moment. As he explains why he chose that song, emotions already welled up inside of me, and I was stopping the tears from splashing out... but the moment he took out the ring box, my tears could no longer control itself. It just flow down endlessly... tears of JOY and tears of excitement and tears of shock and tears of .........a mixed of everything....

yes, thats what my darling did to me... and yes, of course I agreed in the presence of all my cell group members..........aiyoyo.... *Blush*

15th October 2005 545pm... thats the most memorable moment of my life!

A song that brings me memory

2005-10-07T14:36:00.000+08:00

i came across this song the other day, and I remembered that this was one of my favourite song when I was in SAJC, where we always sing during the weekly Chapel session. Though this song is a simple song, yet I am so touched whenever I look at the lyrics...I remember how Jesus was nailed on the cross for my sins... how He came to free us...thank you Jesus...

Lord I lift your Name on High

LORD I LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH
LORD I LOVE TO SING YOUR PRAISES
I M SO GLAD YOU ARE IN MY LIFE
I AM SO GLAD YOU CAME TO SAVE US

YOU CAME FROM HEAVEN TO EARTH
TO SHOW THE WAY
FROM THE EARTH TO THE CROSS
MY DEBT TO PAY
FROM THE CROSS TO THE GRAVE
FROM THE GRAVE TO THE SKY
LORD I LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH

(Bridge)
YOU ARE HOLY....... (REPEAT)
YOU ARE AWESOME....(REPEAT)
BRING YOUR FREEDOM....(REPEAT)

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I wan to sing and sing and worship and worship Jesus everyday! Cos He deserves all our praises! Amen and Amen!

SHOUT TO THE LORD!

2005-10-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

SHOUT TO THE LORD

MY JESUS
MY SAVIOUR
LORD THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU
I WANT TO PRIASE

ALL OF MY DAYS

THE WONDERS OF THE MIGHTY LOVE

MY COMFORT
MY SHELTER
TOWER OF REFUGE AND STRENGTH
LET EVERY BREATH
ALL THAT I AM
NEVER CEASE TO WORSHIP U

SHOUT TO THE LORD
ALL THE EARTH LET US SING
POWER AND MAJESTY
PRAISE TO THE KING
MOUNTAINS BOW DOWN
AND THE SEAS WILL ROAR
AT THE SOUND OF YOUR NAME

I SING FOR JOY
AT THE WORKS OF YOUR HAND
FOREVER I LOVE YOU
FOREVER I STAND
NOTHING COMPARES TO THE PROMISE I HAVE IN YOU

An encounter with God

2005-09-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

I just want to share my encounter with the Holy Spirit during the cell group meeting yesterday. Up till now, I am still so excited and remembering the feeling and really am hungry to experience it once again.

Yesterday during the start of the meeting, I already felt that the atmosphere was different. I do not know exactly why. It is not the first time that I am sharing a testimony during cell group meeting. But somehow, while Jing Jun and Lili were sharing their testimonies, I already felt that the Holy Spirit was amongst us. Please do not think that I am being too cliché, but this is really how I feel. That’s why when it was my turn to share my testimony to give thanks to God, emotions just surge all over me and I could almost felt tears in my eyes. I knew today, God is going to do something different. With a heart full of expectations, I entered into worship.

The time of worship is the beginning of miracles. I have been learning and hearing about worship and entering into the Holy of Holies, both during service and during bible study. We all know that we need to come before God, and enter into Holy of Holies to come and encounter Him. To speak the truth, from the beginning of the cell group meeting, my flesh felt so weak. And it was such a battle in the spirit and my flesh..

But upon entering the second worship, as we started to sing the song “ Secret Place”… I asked myself, “Hey what are you doing?” So I went on knees and in my heart, I told God, please strengthen me… and then.. the exciting part comes……….

I suddenly felt a weight that was so heavy that was pressed upon me. The more I tried to struggle, the more heavy the weight became. My body was literally bending the other way forming an arc….and the strange thing is that I felt a strength that was supporting my neck. Initially, I really could not believe that it was God. So I tried to open my eyes… but I could not. The heaviness became heavier and heavier… then I remember learning that when God is in the room, we would feel his glory and weight so strongly… and the electrifying feeling… just when I started to think maybe it was me not concentrating… the electrifying feeling flowed down from my finger tips to my elbow all the way to my face and to the back of my neck…. Wow wow wow…. Then I thought, okie, I am going to confirm it is really God… so I asked the Holy Spirit… “God, if its really you, Let me feel the electrifying feeling and your breath one more time, and I know its you.”

And guess what? Immediately, I felt that my whole body was arcing so much that my body was almost on the sofa already! And the electricity just flow and I could feel like someone is walking in front of me and the power was so strong, and the next thing I knew, my tears just started to gush out and indeed, at that moment, I knew and I knew, that it was none other than GOD!!!!

I am so excited, because I have really not have such an experience with God for a long time. And I truly understand what it meant to be in the Holy of Holies, worshiping Him the one and ONLY!

I am so excited. I am indeed looking forward to the next cell group meeting and I want to ask God to come again, I want to experience Him again.

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! I love u Jesus! I love the Holy Spirit!

Do you have big faith or small faith today?

2005-09-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can move mountains.

Yes, thats such a simple statement. But, its much easier said than done definitely.

Spoke to a friend this week and the person was telling me, its so easy to trust God with big faith, but its so hard to use our small faith to trust God. Many times when things happen, people always say its only a case of coincidences. But come'on, how many coincidences in life can you get? How will things always fall in place so nicely, one after another, if there is no spiritual intervention?

I never believe in coincidence, because Holy Spirit revealed and taught me years back, that when things happen, it happen for a cause. Even u learnt it in sch, for everything, there is a cause and effect. So the cause is what? The cause is God doing something in our life, and we will soon see the effects.

When we do things by faith, it seems so difficult, because we are stepping into the unknown. Everyone of us have the fear of the unknown. We always want to stay in our comfort zone, refusing to step into the next level.. But that means that you are short changing your own destiny.

Its always easy to live with big faith. But it is equally important to have small faith as well. WIthour small faith, your life will be in a total mess, and u start to take everything in its extreme... either u take things for granted or u just refused to do anything at all..Big faith is like walking on water, like apostle Peter, but having small faith goes down as small as having faith that God will keep u alive the next morning.

The key is never take things for granted. When that happens, you start to numb your soul to the Holy Spirit and God, and you begin to draw strength from everything except God himself. then when things happen, you quickly find yourself in a dry patch, where u feel so lost, so confused at what is actually happening.

Therefore, lets not let our reservoir run dry. Constantly fill up your reservoir with the word of God, with the rhema, with the revelations and love of God... then you will hear Him, and understand why things are happening in a certain manner.

He says:" Ask and you will find, seek and ye will receive"

So happy ^_^

2005-09-08T16:41:00.000+08:00

The Joy of The Lord is My Strength!

Yes, So happy today....dun ask me why...haha...just feeling happy...

been so busy since last week till this week...felt so tired... like chasing for some wild goose..aiyoyoyo...and finally this morning, I finished clearing the review points and submitted in the files to my manager..oh yesh! Means I can now concentrate on my this week's job.. so stress man..

So, why am I happy? Ha...dunno leh... i always hate the process of clearing review points.. like endless endless questions to answer and sometimes, the manager ask questions that are so chim..dunno how to answer also...keke...

But I just wan to thank God for the Wisdom He give me though.... i remember last time, I always take many days to clear the review points.. but this time round, I shortened the days to just 2!!! Haha...quite a achievement, but i believe can be better lar. haha..

But still, All praiise and Glory to God...

So happy...means tonight I can finally relax a bit and can watch my DVDs...hahaha...

Blessing from Bro Sy Roger's Svc

2005-08-20T11:50:00.000+08:00

so long never blog lioaz.. haha..sis kless asked the other day.. why i so long never update my blog.. haha.. ya hor.. nearly forgotten I still have a blog account...

okie.. i think I must start to blog again.. =D

So many things have happened since the last time I blogged.. dun even know where did I stopped.. haha..

Anyway, just want to share a revelation I had last week during bro Sy Roger's weekend svc.

This is the first time I am hearing him preach, cos he always preached during the youth service when he comes. My mind was so blown away when I heard him preached last friday. It was so interesting... he was literally telling his life story.. Something different.. yesh.. and I like what He share.

To summarise, it doesnt takes a genius to qualify for the Kingdom of God, and our history does not affect our passport into the Kingdom of God as well..

Yes, i agree.. so many people always think that they are not good enough for God.. Hello?? God never despise us, and we should not do that as well.. I like how he shared how God changed his life, from a homosexual to a man of God. More interestingly, he shared with us a completely new and different perspective of how we can look at God.. wow wow.. its so refreshing.. :-)

I think we all need to put on our new mind, look at things from a spiritual perspective, and our life will never be the same again!

God is Good, All the Time; All the Time, God is GOOD!

A power ministry

2005-07-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

What can ever replace a Father's Love? Have you ever thought of that?

Sounds cliche? Sounds Impossible?

Ya, I started to ponder on this when Past Mike talked about a Father's Love. Something he said struck me: The love of our Heavenly Father has 2 main characteristics: Rooted and Grounded. Yes, to be rooted tells us that it is ever stable and so deep and entrenched that it cannot be pulled out. The analogy of being grounded was likened to that of the foundation of a building, where the Father's love is really the Foundation of whatever that we are doing and going through in life.

In City Harvest,we learnt that you can give without loving, but you definitely cannot love without giving. Yes, the Power of Love! Love is as powerful as money. Everyday as u read the papers, you see people doing crazy things over Love. And of cos, during this season of Arise and Build, we Love God, thats why we want to build him an altar of sacrifice. =D

Just now, when Past Mike prayed for those people who were heart broken and delivered those people from the spirits that were tormenting them, such as the spirit of rejection, depression, anger, disappointment and etc etc etc, I felt a sadness arosing within me. I really thank God that he sent such a great spiritual leader and teacher like Pastor Mike, who comes every year to do some "spring cleaning" in our church, so that our people remains pure and righteous! Its so important, so that we can flow as a church...to flow together with the vision of Pastor Kong.

Oops, think i seem to be deviating from what I actually intended to write, if you go back and read my first line of this blog.. haha.. .coming back to talk about the father's love, yes lor, i really also cannot remember did my natural dad ever say " I love You" to us. Being a traditional chinese family, feelings are hardly being openly expressed. The man always must be " Macho" la, cannot show their emotions and feelings easily to the women.. haha.. ya lor.. hopefully next time my husband wun be like that. Keke.. Anyway, to cut the long story short, ya, in the absence of the fatherly love from our natural family, it is so important to know and realise that we have a spiritual father in heaven, who loves us so much much, that He can actually endure all our weaknesses and forgive all our sins. How great can this love be? I cannot imagine what would I be doing now, if 5 years ago, I never made the decision to come back to God and attend a church regularly. I would have never have the chance to experience the love of God ever again.

I tell myself, no matter what happens, I would never want to let go of this love. Even when the whole world deserts me, and I am alone, I will never let go.

That reminds me of a song:

I'M LIVING FOR THIS CAUSE

I LAY DOWN MY LIFE INTO YOUR HANDS

I'M LIVING FOR THE TRUTH

THE HOPE OF THE WORLD

IN YOU I'LL STAND

CAUSE ALL I WANT IS YOU

The blessings of God

2005-07-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

i like what i learnt the other day during cell group:

"What God has called for, He will definitely provide"

Wow, such a powerful revelation, isn't it? Yesh, many atimes, we always think of how can we fulfill the dreams that God has given to us. In our natural mind, we always think it is impossible, cos it is simply too BIG a DREAM. But with God, all things are possible. Indeed, so true.

In this season of arise and build, this is the 5th time I am participating in the church Arise and Build. I have always been very excited about it, and this time, I am even more so. Reason?Cant wait to see God's hands moving, and of cos, even more excited about the Mini stadium that we are going to build! God says, if we can see it, we can have it! God already gave the word, and all we need to do is to receive it and embrace it ..=D Isn't that so wonderfully nice?? What better arrangement can we ever find in this universe?

yesh, in this arise and build, even in my own spiritual family, E335, I already start to see and hear how my family members are starting to get blessed and more blessings, some even before they started to pledge! Wow...wow...wow...and the blessings of God are still flowing in non-stop.. I really pray that it will ever continue to flow. Just like the story of the widow and Eljah, where the oil never stop flowing and filling the jars until the sons of the widows told Elijah that there was no more jars left. Wow.. Cant wait to see that happen in E335!

Yesh, God is our Father God, and He never withhold anything from us, his Children. i pray that everyone of us will learn how to receive blessings from God. Cos I have seen people who do not know how to go about receiving the blessings, which are already available and waiting for us to go out and stretch out our hands to get it!

Come on guys, lets start to Arise and Build today! Dun waste an opportunity to get blessed!

Women's heart

2005-07-24T09:12:00.000+08:00

haiz.. people always says, Women's heart is the hardest thing on earth to fathom.. sounds so cliche right? but I definitely agree.. it is not hard to understand why.

Women tend to be more emotional. When things happen, you see that women have a bigger reaction than guys. My colleague told me the other day, he thinks that working with women is so tough. You got to be ever ready for them when they change their moods, when they have mood swings.. haiz haiz..

well, I recently got the "priviledge" to experience from someone i know. I really got so upset, cos all along i thought this person B is always a very nice person, and definitely not someone who would go around to bad mouth people behind their backs. But when I found out that this person B was just another typical person who tries to add mor etrouble around in the office, i am really totally put off by the attitude. I am now telling myself that I should just learn to forgive and forget,just like what Jesus did and said during his ministry. Yes, if God can forgive us, what bigger sin can we not forgive others?

Though even as I am blogging at this very moment, my heart is still aching from the hurt, but I believe God will will vindicate the righteous. I need not try to explain myself, for the truth will always come to surface.

Oh God, give me a bigger heart to love everyone! This is my cry!

Finding your purpose

2005-07-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

Everything in Life has a purpose and our existence is definitely not by chance.

This statement I must say, I have heard it umpteen times, ever since my schooldays in SAJC. ha.. but man, when Pastor Kong preach about this again last week, I could almost felt a total new revelation that God showed me.

Many people think that whatever that they go through in life are pre-destined, and many just feel that they are just part of the life cycle, going through the motion of life. Thats why we see so many people waste their lives away everyday, doing mundane things and just satisfied when they have a little bit of success.

But no, God has a purpose for everyone of us, even before we were born. Just as what the bible says, even before we were formed in our mothers' womb, God has already planned us in his mind. Wow, isnt that wonderful news to hear? So many people are always searching for what they should do in lives. But the fact is that if they are focused on God, then God will show them their prupose in their life.

To live life to the fullest, we must MAXIMISE the talents and gifts that God places in us. If we do not know what are they, then we are likely to start to abuse our purpose. I like how Pastor Kong defines abuse. Abuse = Abnormal Use. Yes, its is so true. Many of us, including myself at times, will abuse our gifts and talents by not maximising and flagging them to the fullest potential. So many of us are guilty of that, including myself..haha.. better start to change my mindset and start to use the gifts and talents that God has given me, so that I can fulfill my purpose and extract the anointing from God that comes with Maximum success... wowowowowowoowwow....

yesh, so excited that the Arise and Build 2005 is coming in 13 days time. I am still praying and asking God how much to give. Unequal amounts, equal sacrifice... yesh... and I believe that as I give, God will give me even more, so that I can glorify Him in my giving. I am so excited that I can participate in this arise and build. This is my fourth arise and build. I believe as God has enabled me to fulfill my pledge in 2000, 2001 and 2002, God will do it again for me. I am trusting God to fulfill whatever amount that He is going to tell me, and more than that, I will see rivers of blessings flowing into my lives. 13 more days...yeah yeah..get ready and set off..

okie.. going to prepare myself for CG later lioaz.. told xuan to come earlier today, so that we can pray together. really feel that this period of time, the spiritual warfare is so strong, and all things really work only through prayer and fasting. I wan to continue to hold strong to my faith and God is the God of yesterday, today and forever!

I am so happy!

2005-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

hey guyS! today is a special day for me! wan to know why is my title "I am happy"? haha... make a guesS?????

well, the reason is simple: My company's yearly promotion list is out and God is awesomely good leh.... I am promoted this round! :-) As some of you may hear from me for the past 1 month, I have been so worried about this round of promotion. The reason being I am a mid streamer and there were actually rumors that mid streamers will not get promoted this round because there are too many seniors to be around. So I kept praying and believing.. and got my friends and cg members to pray for me.,.. and indeed,God came true for me! AMEN! I love you Jesus! I Love you I Love You I Love You!

God's principals in the bible is indeed so true. Jesus says in Mat, " Ask and You shall receive, Knock and you shall find". Indeed, God shows me that when I open my mouth to ask Him, He will not decline any of our requests that we ask of Him. In the past 7 days, God already repeatedly twice shown me this verse can indeed happen in my life!

I am so excited.. I can feel it coming.. I can feel that the Holy Spirit is going to bring me to another level of where I am now.

my new hair color!

2005-06-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

ha... today i did so many things in one day.. must really give myself a big clap....*clap clap clap*...hehe.. felt throughly fruitful today, but now, the end of the day, i starting to feel tired liaoz..

started off the day by attending a NTU Alumni Technical Updates Seminar @ NTU.wow.. really far man.. i mean, though its near to church, but it has been a long 2 years since I last step into NTU.. The whole place really changed a fair bit, but as usual lar, still many many trees ard..hehe.. and the long walk up the slope before can reach the lecture theatres. And was surprised to see some of my EY colleagues there..all in all, it was a pretty enjoyable session :-)

And after that, i went to do something to my hair. Actually was feeling lazy and wanted much to laze in on a saturday afternoon. But my mum called and she was gg to the hair salon. So, i thought, yah, why not i go and do something to my hair. I went and decided to add some colors to it. So i told the person I wanted to highlight my hair. Ha.. this it the second time i am doing highlighting. Hehe... always a pretty mcuh conservative person, esp when it comes to hairstyle. My dear boyfriend always tell me please go and do something to your hair.. haiz.. okie okie.. here I go.

At the end of 2 hours, whew! Got a new color on my hair.. hehe.. was pretty satisfied with the outcome, cos remember the last time i went and tried doing it, there was no color at the end of it. I was so disappointed at that time, that i decided wun try to do it again. But this time, i was pretty satisfied with the results. @_@

God is a God of new things and creation... haha.. thank God for the creation of highlight and colours~ now i feel more youthful.. hehee...oh yeah!

Purposeful life

2005-06-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

Yah man.. TGIF!

So tired after a week of work… finally it’s the weekend again... haha.. .time to let down my hair and hopefully will have a fulfilling weekend again!

Today Pastor Kong called it the Vision Weekend. As pastor shared about the sermon tonight, his theme was PURPOSE. Yes, Purpose! What is God’s purpose for me? And God never waste any of our experience and failures to prepare us for our destiny. I was speechless, when Pastor shared on this. I remember how I always think of my past experiences, and Yes, I admit at times, I do limit myself, limit God and limit the Holy Spirit to work in my life. I have this mindset that there are certain things that cant be overcome, because of the situations I am in, and because of my family background, things are already in this shape, so, nothing much I can do anyway..

But after hearing tonight’s message, I had a new revelation. The level of my breakthrough is going to depend on how much of a paradigm shift in my mindset I allow in my life. The more I get out of my old paradigm, and the more I start to think God’s thoughts, things are going to be different. Somehow, I just feel so charged up and full of faith after hearing the sermon tonight. I make a pact to myself. I must live my life to the fullest to fulfill 101% of the purpose that God has placed in me!

Thank you Jesus! Thank you Pastor Kong!

2005-06-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

i was reading brother isaiah's blog and his latest blog really set me thinking of the dreams that God had laid in my heart.

It was always a dream since school days that I would want to work in the financial sector. When I was young, I always thought working as a teller in a bank looks so much fun.. hehe.. strange right? As I was almost completing my university education, i thought my dream was really coming to pass once I graduated.

However, I was so sad during the big 4 accounting firms recruitment drive in my third year, I did not get a place in the firm. At that time, i was so disappointed and i asked God, WHY? Upon completing my exams, I sent out my resumes again and this time, I prayed and fasted and told God I really wanted a place in one of the Big 4, cos that was a dream i always had . But again, I was disappointed when i did not receive my offer from all of them. Instead, i was offered a place in one of the biggest local firm. I was really thankful to God that He really brought me this job without me going around to hunt for one, as I actually sent out this resume after I came back from my holidays, and by then, many of my friends already went for upteen interviews and me, None. However, as the months went by, I saw many of my peers from NTU, who did not graduate with an honours degree, getting a job in the big fours during their recruitment in september period. By then, I had already signed 2 years of bond to my company.

At that point of time, I was really so sad.. I kept asking God why is it happening to me? Why am I so "unlucky"??? But I remember God just said one word" WAIT'. To tell you the truth, I really cannot understand that loh.. but i decided to Obey and just do my best in that firm where god places me. I did my best and at the end of the 2 years, I was so glad. I realised that my learning curve was so much steeper than my peers in the big four who had also worked for 2 years. And last november, I was offered a place in Ernst and Young. I was so ovejoyed and I just kept praising God. I remember God's word, Wait, and now, I fully understand what He meant!

Friends, when God does not reply or when God says wait, We must obey. As what Isa 55:8-9 says, God's ways are higher than our ways, God's thoughts are higher than our thoughts." We may not understand why certain things are happening to us, although everything seem to be going well. But God always have his own timing. We cant rush him, and we should not rush Him. Because He knows what is best for us. We may feel disappointed at that point of time, but once we have gone through the moulding, God will reveal to us why He says what He says.

So friends, never give up halfway. Listen, Obey and Move! Thats the key to your success. Thats the key to unlock your derams. Never think that your dream is too small, and dun belittle your dream. Manyatimes, things does not happen according to what we want it to be. We get disappointed and we blame God, we blame the people ard us. Dun ever let the devil crepe in to affect our spiritual walk with God. Be like King David. Even when the enemies are against him, He still trust God, continue to praise Him and commit his ways unto the Lord and ask the Lord to direct his paths and moves.

Friends, I believe God has a BIG dream and vision for each and everyone of us. It may seem so hard to accomplish. But dun give up. Cos until you decide to throw in the towel, God never gives up. Be strong and continue to fight the fight! God will fight for you and Me!

Long time never see...

2005-06-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

wow...so long never come in to update my blog liaoz.. haha..shall summarise what I went through for the past 10 days or so in here!

Last thurs,I finally drag myself to go back to workout at the gym after a long long time.. hmm... I always tell myself must b more discipline to work out, to burn the extra fats and calories... and haiz.. the sad truth is that, I often give in to my flesh..and give myself a lot of excuses. But recently, I discovered a horrifying truth! I have put on some weight! Oh MY GOD!!!!!! Thats a diaster! So i told myself that no matter what, I must be stricter with myself! and of cos, I start to have healthier diet... its really tough man... have to give up those yummy fried food.. but for the end result, its worth it lar..

and on friday, I joined my friend to the pilates class at Planet fitness.. This is the first time I attend the class. Not knowing what to expect, I just went in and thought.. never mind.. just follow what people do loh.. At the end of the lesson, I fell in love with pilates. I love the stretching and the exercises that the instructor taught us to train our stomach muscles.. thats what I need! At the end of the lesson, I told my friend that I would sign up for the pilates class @ Clementi Sports Complex, starting in August! haha... Pilates! Here I Come! @_@

Yesterday was father's day. We did not go for dinner, cos me and my sister are still being refrained from eating a lot of stuff, like eggs, seafood..and its all the chickenpox's fault. Anyway, My dad cooked a few dishes for us..hehe.. yummy... he cooked the paper-wrapped chicken, pig liver and vege soup and sea cucumber! wow...all so yummy!The four of us ate heartily and we enjoyed the fellowship... it was a good time eating and enjoying the food. And the thing is, I always love my dad's cooking, cos he always will think of new dishes and try them out. Daddy, I love you! And of course, since yesterday was Father's Day. I want to tell my Godly Father, FATHER GOD, I LOVE YOU!

its another week ahead.. this week seem so busy..got so many schedules already... must really plan out my time..

gtg...tired... almost zonked out liaoz..

The prayer of Jabez

2005-06-10T01:36:00.000+08:00

I was reading the bible yesterday and came across this verse:

1 Chr 4:10

And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying,"Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!"

Its a familiar verse, isnt it? The first time I came across this verse was when I read the book, " The Prayer of Jabez". This is a really powerful verse I feel personally...right now, i feel that its a season of moulding and more moulding for me in my personal life, be in work place, spiritual life and God is taking my weaknesses and moulding them....but i will continue to praise God under all circumstances,and I continue to pray that God will bless me and enlarge my territory ! AMEN AMEN!

and today, Pastor talked abt having big dreams..wow...yeah... THE LEVEL OF OUR ABILITY WILL RISE WITH THE LEVEL OF OUR DREAMS! wow..whew! so true..yeah... from today on, I m going to relive my dreams and visions, and start to work out to slowly but surely bring them to pass, plus the holy spirit...sure can sure can!

gg to zzz.. liaoz...got to wake up in a few hours time and go and visit vannessa...hehehe...

Emerge Conference

2005-06-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

haiz... so sad that I could not make it for the emerge conference for the past 2 nites... heard from my sister that it was superb good.. and as I read sis kless's blog, I am really getting "green with jealousy"... how i wish that i was still a student, having holidays now.. den I sure can go for the full conference...so wasted man.. haiz haiz.. what to do... I really hope that tml I be able to go for it; I want to feel the power and the presence of God... I believe this season, God is speaking to us, corporately and individually... and this weekend services... wow, going to be exctiting!

I actually invited Yidan, my ex-colleague for the service already. She has come twice for our service already, but the only trouble is that she finds it too far for her liaoz... but nevertheless, I am going to keep trying... Still got 24 hours...no no no... shoould be 72 hours up to sunday! ... I shall not give up..oh God! Give me friends that I can ask and bring them to service this week!

Lets EMERGE AND BE THE SALT IN THE MARKETPLACE!

tHe Power and pREsence of the Holy Spirit!

2005-06-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Something so special happened yesterday during the cell group meeting:

During the worship time, suddenly I felt as if I was being brought into another Time Zone. At that moment, while bro isaiah was ministering to us, I suddenly felt that my heart was pumping faster and faster, and the air suddenly felt so densed. I felt as if a power was coming down on me, and I felt so weak at that moment of time.

At that moment, I knew it was the power of God. God was in the house. God was in our midst... and I knew that my heart was beating faster and faster, because subconsciously, I knew something great was going to happen...

And the next thing I knew, Bro Isaiah laid hands on me...and I could feel the anointing of the Holy Spirit... It was so special...that feeling...something which I had not experienced for weeks.... Thank you Lord, Thank you Jesus, Thank you Holy Spirit...I felt refreshed and was so delighted in my spirit ...

At the end of the worship session, I was simply in a loss of words...nothing can express how grateful i am to God. He always know when I need the extra push and encouragement. And He always will send the Holy Spirit in time, to minister to me, and to give me new strength.

Jesus, You are Wonderful! I Love You!

A lazy sunday

2005-06-05T22:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm....

seems a long time i last spend my sunday "lazing" away...

to put it right, its should be spending quality time with my dear... haha...

ya...been so busy for the past few weeks and months...never really got to spend proper time with him... feel so guilty..sometimes when i get stressed out at work, or when i feel tired, i would start to throw tantrums and poor him, got to endure me...hahaa...

anyway, we spend a few quality hours today..and we went for a brunch at Delifrance...hehe... its was great man... we just enjoy each other's presence and man...time flies so fast.... it was time for us to part, as he has to go for his guitar ministry...

to conclude? hahha...it was a great sunday spent la! haha

Moving in the Holy Spirit

2005-05-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

Last saturday during the worship @ cell group, sis kless gave a word and she quoted the verse: Psalm 92:13: Those who are planted in the house of God shall flourish.

What sis kless said during that few minutes truly ministered to my heart, and I was so blessed. Yes, indeed, as we choose to be planted in the house of God, and not be a potted plant, we are in the line, where God can begin to pour His blessings into our lives, so that we can start to be a blessing too. And she also says that many atimes, we may ask God, we are so busy serving Him, but we can see where is our "reward". But then, God says, be patient. I will not forget you. Yes Yes, God is faithful even when we are faithless. And God says, one of the characteristic of his steward is faithfulness. Yes, I make a decision that from today one, I will be a faithful STEWARD.

I was so excited when she shared that verse, because that wa exactly the same verse that God put into my heart during the worship. I had very much wanted to share the verse to encourage the people, but I lost my voice that day...so i was like...er....God how.....But God is so good....He just used Sis Kless to encourage the people with the same verse that He laid in my heart.

It reminded me of the importance of exercising the gift of moving in the spirit, be it prophesy, giving a word, healing etc etc. And indeed, God give the same words to the people who are flowing in the same spirit.

Wow....this is so exciting! I am really thrilled and is truly encourage to move more in the spirit from now on! :-)

A Place Of Influence and Authority!

2005-05-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

Been very blessed since last week sermon that Pastor Kong preached. Pastor talked about being an influence in the market place and this week was a continuation. It was really a message that literally blown my mind off !

The key: God loves the rich just as much he loves the poor. And we need to have a change in our paradigm mindset. Pastor talked about we should get out of our traditional mindset that is hindering us by keeping us in our past. Its really while u take a step forward, u are taking 2 steps backwards.

From the simple parable that Jesus taught the disciples in Luk 19:5-26, there are 3 things we can learn:

A) In this world that has rebelled against Jesus Christ, God still wants us to excel in whatever we do in our marketplace, be it our school or work place.

B) To the degree that we excel and prosper in the marketplace, that determines the degree of auithority we have in the market place.

C) Jesus Christ will not return to deal with his enemies until all his servants have begun to rule and reign in the marketplace.

Therefore, always rememeber: Influence and respect is never automatic. It comes from servanthood. As we serve people and serve God, we begin to earn the influence of them for Christ.

I love the part especially when pastor talked about Servanthood. We must have a servanthood mind and heart. And we are all ministers in what we do. This simply means that ministry is not only the 2 hours that we spend in church, but it is something that we do 24 times 7: EVERYDAY should be where we minister that every person that we meet in our lives.

So the question: What is your mindset about your work and your work place?

Ans: There are 4 levels of mindsets that God wants to change in the workplace:

Level #1: Just a Christian
(Someone who treats the world as the enemy and always think that the world is an evil place. Only thinks that he should go into full-time ministry and stay away from the unbelievers)

Level #2: A Witnessing Christian
(Someone who is more concerned about winning souls for Christ at the workplace than concentrating on the job)

Level #3: A Christian who apply biblical principles in workplace
(Someone who just wants to overcome temptation and be a good testimony.No more, no less)

Level #4: Total Transformation
(Someone who is a leader in the industry they are in, walk in the presence & bring down the Kingdom of God in the market place)

Yesh! Level #4 is what we should pursue.

I make a decision I must move towards level #4, so that I can be used by God to change the world as I begin to change the marketplace.

I am so excited about what God is going to do in my life, in City harvest and in E335. I am so excited that Pastor is preaching about shining in the marketplace. I believe that is really a message in time for me.

Thank you Pastor Kong for preaching such an awesome message that impacted and convicted me.

Thank you Jesus for everything you have done.

God, tell me what should I begin with?

A tiring week....

2005-05-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

Phew! Been a really tiring week at work man!

Anyway, just want to share a mini revelation today..:-)

Just had my appraisal with my manager today. Throughout the whole session, it was really more like a chit chat session man...ha..this is the first time in 6 months ever since I joined the company, that I had such an opportunity to talk to my manager in such a casual manner..cos he hardly talks to the assistants...anyway, to cut the long story short, after the whole conversation, I had much peace. I had been so worried for the past few days for the session, thinking what he would say about me. However, in the end, he only discussed with me abt my days in EY for the past 6 months, and telling me the areas i can improve on and his expectations of me if i get promoted this coming july. Whew!

After the conversation, I realise one thing............... I ve worried and anxious for nothing! aiyoyo....i really too gan cheong man...should ve relax more..haha..anyway, I suddenly remember this verse from the bible : His thoughts are not our thoughts, and His ways are higher than our ways. I kept thinking negatively before the appraisal, worrying what will happen. But should ve more faith lar...Really a lesson learnt...Sorry God...:-) Indeed God is so good.. I believe He already had something great installed for me, just like a present there, waiting for me to go and open it. Hallelujah! God is Good!

Anyway, I believe everything ended on a good note. Now I will just keep praying and believing for my promotion. Cos I believe that promotion comes from God.

All praise be to God!

To love your neighbour as yourself

2005-05-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

Finally I got down to write my first post in my own blog...haha...

it had been really encouraging reading sis kless, xuan's and bro isaiah's blog...they have posted so many of their revelations, thoughts and many many things there...

so i decided to do up my own blog too.. yupiz!

Although this week is a short week, but it seems so long to me...cant wait for the weekend to come again..haha...

still misses the great time of fellowship at the settlers' cafe last week with my spiritual family...been a long time since i had such a "crazy" time playing card games...the only memory i ve was during my secondary school days...wow that seems so long man!

this week so tired leh...got to handle this supervisor who really gets on me and my friends' nerves...so we got to be stressed abt completing the job on time for the manager's review, and yet at the same time, got to manage this supervisor on the job who does NOTHING! wow cant stand her man...i need greater capacity to love her..haha...cos Jesus says love your neighbour as yourself ..I tell myself everyday I will try.

I just hope after this friday, i will not get to book to work for her again...thank God for pulling me through this job! :-)

2005-05-20T01:38:00.000+08:00